We quit Classical Conversations today. I feel such relief that the decision is made and that we are not going tomorrow. This has been a very difficult decision, but it is the right one for our family.
I learned about Unit Studies and Charlotte Mason very early on in our "researching homeschooling methods" phase. (Yes, we are still in that phase! Will we always be?) I immediately felt drawn to both.
Unit studies are very intuitive to me. I love the idea of taking a central theme, idea, or book and building all subjects around that idea. It makes sense, it builds connections, and if the child is interested in the topic it feeds into what is hopefully lots and lots of eager curiosity.
Charlotte Mason is such a gentle approach, but thorough, meaningful, and high level. The idea of spending ten or fifteen minutes per subject is brilliant, allowing for a young child to have vast exposure to quality learning. Building nature into study, play as a strong component of learning, hardy, but relaxed...are all areas I struggle in, but make sense to me. They are what I want for our homeschool.
I felt like we would use a combination of both methods (and felt sad Charlotte Mason opposed unit studies), I was confident in this approach. Then I heard about Classical Conversations, the classical approach, the trivium...building pegs....it made sense too! The best part? Or one of the best parts was, one day a week I was guaranteed legit and defined schooling. If I messed up the other four days, I still had one day I knew Luke would be educated. It felt like an insurance policy against me totally messing this homeschool thing up. I signed us up as soon as possible...I paid the significant amount of money gladly...I bought supplies happily (shopping for more school stuff...who wouldn't love it!?!).
We attended orientation two weeks into our academic year. Luke and I went to the meeting, Ian and Mark went to the playground with all the other kids and many dads. Orientation was great, except Luke was obviously about to be in full blown sick mode. It came out of nowhere, but it was apparent to me he would be sick the next day and likely for ten to fourteen days afterwards.
We missed the first week...we didn't do anything for CC that week. We went the second week and Luke thrived. I was so impressed with his behavior. I had to re-focus him a few times, but he participated, he sat (mostly) still, he had fun, he talked (a little) with his classmates. He did an excellent job with his first ever oral presentation (on his favorite book, Meet Cherry Jam). I was incredibly proud of him!
The science lesson was less than stellar...the teacher clearly did not understand what she was trying to teach or how to conduct the experiment correctly. An easy thing to forgive because I was confused too. Another mom tried to get us all on the right path and maybe she got her son situated...but Luke and I learned nothing, but he didn't know that. So...it was okay because I figured Mark could re-do it at home and teach us.
The art lesson was not what I had anticipated at all. Our director had told me she loved the art segment each week because she doesn't like to do messy work, CC allows her kids to do a fun messy art project. I am good with messy, but I looked forward to very directed art lessons with new mediums. I was excited about the kids lying underneath the desks painting upside down like Michelangelo, I was excited that we might try oil paints (my favorite, but one I have not explored with my kids yet).
The lesson was on symmetry...they copied half images to try to make symmetrical images using pencils. I completely see the validity and value of this task. But my five year old is not skilled enough to complete this task close to well. It is not fun, it is not colorful. Luke seemed okay with it, but it was not messy or exciting. He didn't have anything close to symmetrical on his worksheets (Worksheets in art! Bleh!) He was probably much more okay with art class than I was, but it was not what I wanted or hoped. I know the goal is to work towards drawing, I know it is a good idea, it is just not an idea I want for our K year.
Memory work was, well, it was memory work. Luke is bright, I think he is very bright, he is a very quick learner, but songs and finger plays are not his areas of strength. He has a very difficult time with finger manipulation, especially when it is fast. It takes him a very long time with lots of repetition to learn hand motions to songs. He could not keep up with the ASL or the words....it would require lots and lots of time on both of our parts to be successful at signing and singing. (The words were not so concerning, I knew those would come with practice, the signing could become a burden.)
He answered a question during the review time, but was wrong. It was a question from the previous week's science...he took a guess (although in his mind I am pretty confident it was not a guess, but the answer), and the teacher chuckled at him. She laughed...it was one of those..."Oh how cute, he tried," laughs, but it was a laugh. I can forgive it because it was not meant to be harmful or disrespectful...but it was and it worried me...isn't this a reason to homeschool, so my child learns to be brave, to try out answers, to be a risk-taker without being laughed at when he fails? I don't think I am over-reacting, especially since I didn't react at all (at least externally). Our teacher is clearly a kind and loving woman (who welcomed us with our food allergies and class imposing restrictions, who firmly defended my sweet boy when the annoyances were voiced), but this one mistake, was important to me.
I do believe the Classical approach can be effective, probably even lots of fun, and has value...but our brief experience taught me that it is not for us...not at this time or in this season. Our time was in fact very limited...we only attended one of three classes. Luke was sick the first and third week. I could easily use that as my "quit card." The truth is, I knew after the first week we attended (which was week 2), that we would not do CC the following year or likely in subsequent years. I love the Timeline and we do work on that daily (just the words, no signs and Luke has it memorized almost perfectly to the current week, as do I), but nothing else is what or how I want him learning right now. I don't want to focus on memorizing seemingly random (I know they aren't if you do the whole program) facts when we could be collecting leaves or building train track systems. I want art to be messy and simple.
I want him to be free to answer incorrectly.
This is not meant to be a negative review of CC, even though it probably seems like it is. I realize I don't need a program to hold my hand...our year is not going perfectly...Luke and I fight some days, I am often overwhelmed, it is hard, but I am doing a good job. Luke is learning, a lot! More than I ever remember learning in school. (I am learning a lot! I am amazed daily at how much I do not (did not!) know.) Homeschool feels good, it feels right, despite all the challenges, it is perfect. It is not perfectly how I want it, I have hundreds of tweaks to make (and I don't know how to make many of them!), but it is perfect. All by ourselves.